So every once in a while I make the HUGE mistake of taking a risk and fancying someone. Not even once in my life has this been a good idea as my feelings are NEVER reciprocated. Everyone says take a risk. Let me tell you what I think about that...FUCK THAT!! It's NOT worth it. I never learn anything from being rejected other then confirmation that no one will ever be interested in me. I already know this with ever cell in my body. I don't know why I need to relearn it every few months. Next time I get a fuzzy idea in my head to be interested in someone STOP ME! Please, I'm serious STOP ME. I just need to realize that guys don't like me. They never have and never will. I'm a complete person by myself. I guess it is not part of my life chart to share that with anyone.
i love you.
ReplyDeleteI don't even know you, and I know that's not true. You're a beautiful funny woman. I see that in your writing. You're smart and wonderful. You don't need a man to complete you. That's true. Want one to enhance you. I, too, have had moments of feeling unlovable. I didn't find "My Love" (Zach) until I was 31 years old. You will find someone who loves you just as you are. Believe that.
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel and it sucks big time. I don't know why we do not amount to anything in others eyes. But just hang in there and don't give up yet. I am trying to do the same.
ReplyDeleteLove You
Lisa